8kg down and 18 more to go!

If you’re wondering what the heading is all about!?... Well yes! I’ve actually lost 8kg since the 21st of February 2007. I know many are staring at their little toes at the moment to see if they can catch the miracle of toes laughing! But it’s true…. I’m in fact surprised with my weight this point of time.

A colleague of mine asked me to blog about my diet experience somewhere last week. Actually I’ve been wanting to for the longest time but just decided not to because I feel sad even though I’ve made a good progress. I feel sad that though I’ve lost 8kg, I don’t see the difference in me. Many say I look the same. But then again I’m not sure if they commented such so that I’d not flatter myself and start eating like a pig all over again! Yeah you read it well, eat like a PIG and sleep like a PYTON after.

So how am I doing it? Well I’ve completely stopped having rice since February 21st. I exercise regularly and drink more water lately. As the doctor’s saying goes, “an apple a day keeps the doctor away”, well I’ve been having green apples daily as I heard it’s good for people on a diet. The first 3 weeks I did not take any meat. It was just full of vegetables and also fruits. When I saw the results was 5kg less then I started a little on my old habits to start having chicken and potatoes and all. Thankfully for the exercise I think that I’ve lost now to 8kg all in.

My office is at the 7th floor of my building. I walk approximately 140 steps up every morning to keep myself fit. There are at times I get lazy and take the lift too (today is an example of that day). The last 2 weeks I’ve been busy with work that I go back late. So I’ve hardly exercised. But this last two days I’ve been exercising out of my usual aerobics and dancing. My beautiful neighbors Praveena and her sister Priyanka takes me for a walk. We would walk about 200 meters and then we’d jog for 200 meters. When I stop Priyanka and Praveena would just push me and pass me like a batten when each of them feels tired. It’s so cute and walking and jogging never seem to fun all these while. Yesterday I had a good fast walking with Praveena’s mum joining us for our walk.

Somehow lately I’ve been feeling a little lazy. It’s time I get up everyday at 5am and start back the morning duties as well in order to kill more calories. This Friday there’s a birthday party in BISIK. I can’t wait to go for it. I doubt anyone would notice that I’ve lost weight because it just can’t be seen but I hope I make an impression.

Hope to loose more weight by the time my cousin gets married in May so I can really show my relatives that I’m not some ass who’s worthless.

God knows how many people have been trying to talk senses in my head about my weight since they know me! Time I grant them their inner wishes. Wonder if I should sign agreement with them asking them what they’d do for me if I lost weight!? Hmmm good deed I guess. Time I go do my hunting for part of my motivation!!!!!

AND! If you’re wondering what do I weigh now!? Well Shhhhhhhhhhhhh it’s a secret! Will tell when it’s all shred away!!!!!

I should have been the eldest

I sit and think of my life on where it is heading and I sit and conclude that I should have been the eldest in the house. I have two elder brothers and the youngest and the only girl would be ME!

As a kid I’ve been the most notorious and mischievous one in the family. I remember the days I’d take cash from my dad’s pocket and go bowling or buy a nice bracelet or necklace for myself. The best craze of that time would be getting all of Celine Dion’s cassettes and Cd’s so I can imitate her for my Singing and Dance competition. Well as they say, “All things must come to an end”, and I got found out by my dad. This turned the clock anti clock wise. My dad started being very strict to me because he was really hurt. The relationship I have with my dad is actually the closest compared to what my father would have had with my brothers or the one my mother has with my brothers. I don’t speak about my mum and me because there has to be fights daily or it’s considered a weird day to everyone at home and also for the neighbors.

Anyway since I’ve hurt my dad before he’s never trusted me when it comes to money but things have changed. Now days I’m more responsible than my brothers so some how he has learnt to trust me again. Somewhere last year I took a loan from my office and did not tell my dad. Actually I took the loan to help my brother (whom I’m closed too) because he was going into some very bad financial situation. After helping him there last year we had an incident at home again and I had to borrow 1500 from a Good Samaritan to help my brother again. I’ve paid him back RM500.00 but the 1K still hanging.

Last Friday my dad called me and said he wanted 3 months pay slip because he wants to refinance our car and put it under my name. I was stunned one moment there because he will now know that I’ve taken up a loan since it has monthly deductions. Somehow I wanted to fake the pay slip but thought how much greater trouble I’d be getting into and decided to tell my dad the truth! Well not entirely the truth. I went home at 8pm rather scared that night. Thank God my mum was not at home. I managed to tell my dad that I took the money to help a friend and that she pays me every month the money they deduct in my pay slip but somehow he did not trust me. He asked me if it was okay for him to come and question my friends and I said ‘YES’ without pausing. Of course I’ve already told my friends to cover for me by then because I don’t want to get my brother in any trouble.

Anyway my dad asked me to tell my so call friend to pay back the cash or he’s coming to see her. Not knowing what to do finally I got the guts to sms my Good Samaritan again and luckily he helped. So now I owe him 2k!!! I’ve managed to go on a strict budget to pay him back RM100 per month. I really got to thank him personally when I meet him.

I’m glad I spoke to my dad that night though it wasn’t entirely the truth but I see that things have changed the relationship I have with my dad. My dad told me that he wasn’t going to tell my mother to sour my relationship with my mother worst. I’m so glad he’s not utter a word about it to my mother and he’s been talking to me rather in his normal way. Anyway as soon as my friend banked in the money for me I withdrew it and told my dad that it’s the money my friend paid up. He was happy and knew that it had to be a girl giving me the money because he knows for sure I had no savings to come up with that amount of money within a day or two. Just hope he doesn’t know about the Good Samaritan!!!
The thing I’ve learnt from this all is that, I value my dad’s opinion very much in my life. The once I burnt his trust made us not talk to each other for 3 months and that was the black years of my life. The hurt was greater than what I felt my ex-fiancée passed. Therefore I’d never do anything to hurt my dad. If I had to lie to keep him happy I’d do that but just hope and pray daily that, that lie does not burn me towards the end.

For now I know there’s nothing else to hide from my dad when it comes to my financial situation or life because we’re friends back again. I will pay my Good Samaritan back really soon and that would be the end of borrowing money from anyone. It’s time I save. But the only way I’m going to save is by getting a new job!

Looking back at the responsibilities and also the time I spend at home compared to my brother I just think I should have been the eldest for I carry on my shoulder a heavy load. Would I ever find a door away from this load?......................................................

Maxis Call Center

If you’re using the Hotlink service then you’d know what I mean with this blog. Anyway just a overview and don’t think that I’m publicizing for Hotlink. So Hotlink works these days with merit points. If you top up RM10 then you’ll have 20points and if it’s RM30, you’ll have 60 points. Basically I think the points are times two of what you reload into your account. For every 100 points you can either redeem RM1 talk time or 50 free sms to numbers within the same network. So 3 weeks ago I tried redeeming the points for 50 free sms. I was told that due to their system being upgraded my points will delay till after the 23rd. So yesterday was the 26th and I was loosing my patience that I decided to call Maxis call centre. So here is the conversation….

Man : Good evening, thank you for calling Maxis Call Centre. How may I help you this is X.
Me : Hi X I’m Y and I’m calling due to problems in the redemption of points.
X : Yes Ms. Y I’m sorry that our service is still upgrading and it would only revive in two weeks
Me : Two weeks!!!!?
X : Yes Ms Y. By the way are you Indian?
Me : Yes I am! Why I sound like a foreigner is it!? ( rather harshly I asked him).
X : Oh I’m an Indian too
Me : Oh well Vanakam( hi in tamil) then.

That guy actually spoke to me in tamil for a while and started being cute and naughty and flirty. I was not sure to be rude, nice or to laugh the whole thing. After he being really help X told me that there will be a customer evaluation form I need to reply as to his service. I told him I’m going to rate him 1 (poorest marking scheme). And then he said “ 5 la Miss”. And I quickly replied “5 means u owes me lunch” and he replied “NO PROBLEM”.

Anyway I rated him 5 because he was really sweet and helpful. Anyway I know for a sure he’s not going to call me and buy me lunch or anything. But it was worth a laugh towards end of it because the week had been truly stressful!

He made my day

I realized today that a person I call friend all this while is Ceylonese and only today I knew his full name!. I called him to verify this fact but he was busy. He then calls me back… thinking it’s an office call I kept calling him “Encik” as in “Sir” and then realized it was him. When I asked him if he was a Ceylonese and about his full name he replied me saying “ you’re very impressive for a friend” and I just laughed while he explained he’s fascinated because I don’t know his full name or his background and the fact we are friends for the past 2 years!!!!

Well I guess it’s funny that it only striked him about me just yet. I am fond of making friends without knowing even their age and background. Well I know a good friend called Suresh (yes the one whom I blog about always) and I only knew his age this year and I still don’t know which company he is attached too or his designation.

To me towards end of any day, as long as you are a good friend who don’t talk at the back of me and can manage my tantrums and annoying character then you’re indeed a good friend…… weird as it seems but hey! That’s why this blog says it … All about the complicated me!!!!

I guess this is also why they say I’m innocent and easily taken advantage off.

Cheers all….

The Devil of Confusion Creeps Back

My heading says it all. God knows how many freaking times I've started blogs and end their lives and then choose to revive them all again by opening a new address. Blogs are suppose to be journals. It would be considered something really personal. Now I can't blame people for reading it because when one talks about a blog, I tend to get very interested and say " Hey I've got a blog too". And after that we exchange url's and then what you do?, you actually get stuck.... too many people knowing you, you get confused if you should blog A or not being afraid maybe B would be offended and much of those confusion.

After much of deep thinking I still am confused. But I guess I learnt something out of this.... If you're not claiming publicity .... try to keep your bladdy mouth shut and no one will know. Now that everyone knows, just keep up the good blogging and let people enjoy the way to your life.

I guess it's pointless to shut down blogs and revive blogs because towards end of the day you'd never see your blog's anniversary (as spent by many others).

Well so blog, here I am to stay!!!!

Mysteries of characters.

There’s this girl J in my neighborhood who is as old as my brother. I became close her more after the dismiss of her father. We have had our ups and downs along the way. Many memories we would not forget doing together. She’s hopped in between jobs since I knew her. Lately she’s got herself a job which her working hours are way different than mine, so we hardly meet.

Yesterday I met her and Jessie. We all went home together as Jessie was sweet enough to drive us home. Three months ago J enrolled in a weight management program and has since lost about close to 20 kg. I had a picture of her taken before losing her weight and showed her for her reflection. The first comment she did was, “God! I was so fat!!!!!”. I just smiled at her amazement. Not only that, she showed Jessie the photo and Jessie who is a very sophisticated and pretty women was indeed very happy and motivated J to keep up the good work. I’m happy J has lost a lot of weight but I somehow feel offended and it was for a moment there like I did not exist.

Anyway I’m always a blur with both of them. So today I just mailed J as I use to everyday asking her how was she doing and she replied me this “Am ok so far. Just additional work to do. I still cannot believe my picture I saw. I was soooooooooo huge. My god. No wander all the proposal I had the guys would have got scared, seeing me so big.” And my reply to that was “Well good for u and hope no one runs after this”. J replied my mail asking me something else after that. I'm not sure if she felt I was jealous and annoyed with her at that point but I’m sure I was annoyed. The thing is I was a little annoyed because I’m big as well. It felt like someone taking a knife and piercing deep into my soul. The least I believe she could have been a little considerate.

I just don’t understant how can people change overnight just because they have achieved something now which they have been craving from those days. If I were to be the one who reduce weight I don’t think I’ll change my whole self and character. I won’t put another fat person down and make her or say things that would hurt her. Even my words of encouragement I will not hint that I’m great and she’s not. I only do lashing when people hurt me but end of the day I’d feel bad that I’ve hurt someone. For example now, I've finished my degree and I'm proud of it but I don't go flashing to people how educated and great I am because that's is something not important in the basis of friendship.

It’s just sad how people change just because suddenly the fit the fit, hot and trendy group. It’s like the movies we see; a geek group girl becomes popular among the famous group and then is used and she turns down her geek friends just to show she is superior. Just so sad is what I feel. Then again many will say I’m jealous and that’s why I’ve blogged this. The truth is, fat or thin I’m the same and only a few will know that……..

What would have I say if I were J.... " Hey, I just can't believe the progress I've made from then to now. I'm just happy I made it this far and hope you'd do the same so we both can find our ideal ones without being rejected.... time we reject guys instead.... you have a nice day".

A Dedication to Suresh Nair

Dearest Suresh Nair,

Greetings. How is Tawau? Hope everything is well and great. KL misses you and it can't wait to feel your presence again. I hope you do not mind me calling you Suresh Nair as I think only Anita and both of us will know the history to it. You were introduced to me in 2003 by Anita and since then you've been a chipsmore cookie!. One minute I hear from you and then you go missing and when finally we meet back, it's always the story of me changing numbers being the reason we've not been communicating.

Then last year we went to Melaka and things have not been so much of a missing in action since. It's your birthday today and I thought I'd just like to thank you for a few things.

Firstly I'd like to thank you for not going missing often like you used too and thanks for keeping in constant touch. Thank you for being honest about your age ( and God knows how much I've annoyed you for the past few months to get this information). Thanks bigtime for making me drunk and creating history for me since New Year ( I'm talking about the Thai food and white wine).

Above all that has been mentioned, no thank you notes would be enough to just thank you for being a good friend, for putting up with my annoying character, my lazer mouth which can be irritating and hurting and thank you for really having all patience being a friend in times of trouble and in need. You're truly one of a kind.

Anyway dear, Happy Birthday and God bless you in all you do and May all your dreams come through as your heart desires............... and HEY come back fast!!!! Can't wait to kiss you and go get drunk again with you!


Your's lovingly
:) You know who :)

Lunch with Anita

It’s been two months plus now since I met my friend Anita and that’s why I accepted her invitation for lunch on Saturday. At the beginning she was suppose to have other engagements but since last minute her date cancelled on her, I was her second choice! Gee I’m just the second best thing, but I’m not complaining because she treated me. Hehehe. I had wine while she had two cocktails. Not sure what was it that she had. Anyway I met her after work about 2.30pm.

Anyway it was good meeting her. We catched up with gossips and what's been happening with us in this fast moving era and one of them was of course talking about our missing member Suresh Nair!!! Poor boy stuck in Tawau and won't be able to come back to meet his angels. Suresh if you are reading this then come back fast, we are waiting to take you for out for dinner.
Anyway Anita and I went to Chili's in Midvalley. Before we left back Anita just said, " I've never seen anyone taking 3 hours just to finish a glass of wine!" and I could only reply, "yeah, I don't want New Year's repeating history at this point of time!". I guess you all know who she meant! Gee..... life!.

Anyway Anita's treat was because she's been confirmed in her job. So congradulations girl!. And thanks for making me sin again by drinking wine during lent.

I was distracted by a small boy somewhere halfway of our lunch. The boy is a Malay mix Chinese but he looked very much Chinese with his spike hair, big round eyes and a very cheeky smile with dimples too. Before leaving I just walked over to the baby who was sitting in the toddler chair, pinched his cheek and just handed my hand towards him. The thing that made it all good was his soft fingers gripping mine. That experiance is something I'd never trade for anyone. One moment there it was as if I had this child looking up to me in full innocence and adoration. Just wished he was mine so I could have squished him! Hopefully have mine soon!

I reached home almost 7. I was suppose to join the Chinese New Year dinner thrown by my Chinese neighbours but decided to pass because I was firstly dieting and secondly just too lazy to get out after working and meeting Anita. Thank God my dad approved but my mum did not look the least thrilled.

Anyway that night about 11.15pm I drove to KL Sentral to pick my brother who came back from Sabah. Reached home at almost 12.30am and then watched the women's 10 of American Idol on 8tv. I did not go to church the next day. Really sinning this 2007!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VADAI

To a good friend I will say

This post is dedicated to you. I may not be close to you. But I'm proud to say that you're one of those who can be very annoyed with me but still have the patience to still communicate with me. So it's your birthday today. Happy Birthday and may God bless you always. Thanks for also putting up with me!!!!!

Can't wait to meet you again

What's with me for March and April

A friend called me a criminal for not updating my blog and though I feel guilty about it, I did not do anything till today.

As you all would have read my previous blog, you would have noticed my scheduled weekends for January and February. A few may be wondering how my March is coming about and here are my updates…..

March
3rd – Work Work Work
10th – Work Work Work
12th - Vadai (Hapi Birthday to You!!!!)
13th - Suresh Nair (heheh Happy Birthday da)

17th – Might Be work work work
24th – Shopping for Vadai and Suresh
30rd – Birthday Party in BISIK

April
6th - Good Friday
7th – Anita’s Birthday
8th - Easter
18th – Happy Birthday Mummy. You are 58 this year… waaaa so old!! I love you
20th – 22nd - Team Building in Mines

May

Planning a trip to PD with Praveena’s family. Let’s see how it goes.


So there goes my details for March, April and May. Damn packed weekends.